Why do I keep needing this fix?

All I can think about is getting laid. I want it so bad and spend all my time in pursuit of it.

I think part of it may be that I have a crap job right now...it's only part time and I just don't feel like a man anymore. I need the fix to feel like a man.

I hope that if I can get back into the work force full time that maybe, with a restoration of some dignity that I can pull myself back out of this funk.

I need to feel masculine, in charge, and whole. I don't feel that right now.